Prose 23 : Dream Course
Dream Course - T ABRAHAM
Many of us have dreams and many of us dream literally while sleeping and the other one is nothing but one's vision in life about what we want to pursue and what career path we want to take up in our future. Here, I am going to describe about the goals which I had in my life and upon what factors it changed according to time and what am I planning next for the upcoming year of 2025.
When we decide something about what we want to pursue and what kinds of job you are really interested in and going to take up once you attain your stage, we can let our decisions keep changing but should not give way for it to waver. One's decision, if getting changed due to some acceptable and considerable factors can be permitted but if one is going to let one's decision waver even though you have once decided and have changed it just because of other people's opinion you are going to get lost in the dark.
So, during my childhood days I wanted to become a software engineer and I was very firm in it till my early days of my 10th grade. But I do not like 'Mathematics' and 'Physics' so during my 10th grade I found out that I am interested in 'Biology' and 'Chemistry' and I have decided just to give a try for NEET UG. During the application process for class 11th I chose Biology- Computer Science group and I wanted to become a biotechnology engineer and I wished to enter the domain of research and development. Since, the eligibility for this course needed 'Mathematics' I did not want to take up 'Mathematics' but I wanted to go for B.Sc Biology Research program which was offered by IISc Bangalore. But since most of my cousins were doing their B.E in CSE I was forced to take up 'Mathematics' and it was the worst possible thing that happened. Even though I had applied for Biology without Mathematics I was forcibly pushed into the Biology with Mathematics group.
Even though it was making things difficult I was willing to give my best for the KVPY 2020 which was the entrance test for admission into IISc for the B.Sc Research programs. But I miserably failed to clear the exam which was a great distress for me during my 11th grade as it was my only hope to get away with the B.E in CSE which I would be forcibly be introduced to when I complete my 12th grade. Since, it was the pandemic lockdown period which was going on during my 11th grade with all the practical sessions getting cancelled it was quite less burdensome to some extant. Then comes the regular offline sessions of the 12th grade with it's full fledged practical classes. I was totally shattered when I found out that I was totally clueless about the practical aspect of this course and rather than the advantages I fell into all the disadvantages happening in this course. I have decided just before the day of my CBSE board results that, I would not be continuing in science anymore.
Then, on the day of my results I did not get flying colours in all my subjects but I scored well in my Biology and English with 90% in both these subjects. But I did not want to choose Biology anymore. I wanted to switch to Humanities and it was something quite challenging to convince the whole family upon one end forcing you to take up a B.E in CSE atleast in the management quota on the other hand you trying not to enter a course which you do not want to pursue further. Then, in humanities there were plenty of options available from the basis of all, that is, from Philosophy to the scientific based Psychology. I wanted to choose either Political Science or History for my under graduation but since I did not have both these under my 12th grade course I had only the option of trying for English Language and Literature at two of the colleges where it was available that is, Madras Christian College and Loyola College. I got selected under the last list which was released for the merit based screening at Madras Christian College and I wanted Political Science but I did not get any notification of getting selected in it.
So, 'Do I regret for joining B.A in English Language and Literature course ?' the answer is a plain 'no'. Even though I have an aversion towards the grammar component and the language component of this program I have come to know about many things and I have got a good command over my writing and communication in terms of English as the medium used for it. During my schooldays I was totally away from novels and I only got the opportunity to read poems, essays and short stories. Even though many of my classmates read a lot of novels during their schooldays I was a person who did not get an opportunity to read them. The first two novels that I loved reading are 'Pride and Prejudice' and 'Jane Eyre' which were easy to comprehend with and was written in simple language.
Then, coming to my writing journey, I was able to publish two books of poetry which were titled as 'I ADMIRE YOU - A SELF-ADMIRATION OF MY INNER FEELINGS' and 'LOUD INNER VOICE : Multiple Voices Ringing Inside'. Myself and the art of writing poetry or the art of writing in general were like things that cannot meet face-to-face with each other. But my dormant writing faculty was brought into action by 3 of my professors who were constantly encouraging me and motivating me towards my writing journey till I reached my destiny. These two books were something which I have never thought about in my life and it was made possible only because of the will of God present in my journey. My failures in science stream have thought me that I did not choose something which was less valuable than science but I am able to hone my skills which are more valuable than an IT job and the money one can earn through it.
So, I did not choose English as my path forever but something that would land me into the world of humanities. This degree program introduced me indirectly to the other branches present inside it. Then, as it was said earlier I wanted to do my M.A majoring in something else other than English as it has helped me more than required to establish a domain in humanities and it has bridged my gap which existed during my last two years of schooling without humanities.
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