Prose 17 : The Dormant Writing Faculty
The Dormant Writing Faculty - T ABRAHAM
Many a times we underestimate our potential or sometimes we may not know about ourselves. It is very important that first one has to know about himself and then one can define one's self in a more detailed manner. The things which usually one fails to add on when trying to define is something that is present innately but one is not aware about it. This innate quality would have never came even in one's dream or is an unthinkable and even impossible when one deliberately thinks upon it. So, here I am going to describe how I found out my writing skill which was lying inside dormant for years and how it awoke from it's sleep.
During my schooldays I have heard people say that they write poems and many take part in essay writing contests. But I have never thought about it and I always have in my mind that I do not posses any information with me for any random topics presented to me. So, the years passed by with me always reading and learning for my exams, assignments and seminar (which rarely takes place during my schooldays). To be plain in describing myself and the knowledge which I possessed during my schooldays is something that cannot be applied to my life and most of the times it went on from memorising without understanding.
During the two years in science stream was something I would never forget. There was a lot of memorising process involved rather than understanding, except for 'Biology' and 'English' which were some of my favourite subjects. The idea of me writing a creative article or an essay or a poem was totally an impossible case and I have never even thought about it in my dreams. But unexpected things happen at unexpected times. After being in science stream without any humanities subjects made me quite stressful during my board exams. I did not like the subjects which I had and especially 'Mathematics' which I totally had an aversion and was forced to take it up to make my way into engineering by force. My dislike for 'Physics' is something that is yet another thing which made me totally become repulsive towards my family's decision for me to take up engineering.
During the middle of my science course I have decided I would only take up either B.Sc in Botany or Zoology or Microbiology and was trying to convince my family about it. Finally I convinced them but the main problem is the practical aspect of these subjects. Since, I was doing my science stream during the pandemic which turned the path which I wanted to choose. After my boards my results were delayed since I belonged to CBSE and I decided just before the day of my results that I wanted to pursue humanities and I do not want to continue in science any more.
Then, on the midnight of 24th July 2022 I applied for B.A English Language and Literature course at Madras Christian College under the aided stream with a doubtful mind whether will I make it into the course. On the day of my result which was on 22nd July I applied for B.A Political Science and came to know the next day that humanities and commerce stream students are preferred for admissions into the Political Science degree program. Even I applied for B.A History at Loyola College under the aided stream and it was again filled with many doubts. So, finally in the time of my waiting I was totally distressed whether is it possible to switch from science to humanities and I got my answer on 25th July 2022 the very next day after my application was sent. It was around 10 o'clock in the night when I checked my mail and found a mail from Madras Christian College which was sent to me during the evening around 6:30 pm. I opened the file and came to know that I got selected for B.A English Language And Literature and was asked to complete my fee payment and enrollment by 27th July. So, I was overjoyed after the period of waiting and this was the day I truly got the feeling of happiness which I have lost in the year 2020 after enrolling and getting totally stressed by the science stream subjects.
Then, I found it quite hard to cope up with the change even though I have switched my stream. I have opted in for this degree program because it exposes one to all the other streams which are present in humanities. So, I got a clarity that I wanted to do some other course in humanities after the completion of B.A in English Language And Literature. But first I have to contribute something to this field and should contribute something for it. Then, during my third semester in this course I had an allied course titled 'Practical Introduction To Literature' where I got my first activation energy to my dormant faculty and I started to write three poems and then wrote poems everyday and then one day after the approval from my professor I published my first collection of 50 poems as a book on 16th November 2023. Then my next set of 50 poems was published as a book on 7th March 2024. My writing faculty came into it's existence only after the motivation and encouragement which I received from 3 of my professors who made me understand what was present inside me. The 50 poems were completed within a time of around 2-3 months and this is something that I have not even thought about in my dreams.
The process of writing and publishing something in a span of few months was something that was never thought about by me. I would definitely like to thank all the contributors in aiding to wake up my dormant writing faculty which made me define 'Who I am?', 'What can I do?' and 'What are my skills and talents?'.
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